I have a very small circle of friends. In fact, I almost have nothing. I am not the type who posts something on Facebook, one which is very random, and people go on commenting on it like we're close and talk all the time. I'm not the type who tags a lot of different people on posts or photos. I am not the type who receives wall posts from people who tell me that they have something for me in my inbox or just about anything.

Social networks make me feel more alone.

I am not the type who goes out with different groups of friends for lunch or dinner. I go out with a few friends, though. It's not that I get tired of going out with them... of course, I don't. I just think sometimes that I don't have good social skills that's why I'm like this. It's not that I want to have new friends and replace the old ones... no, that's not it. It's a bit complicated to talk more about my reasons in this blog so I might as well keep it to myself and think about it on my own. Nobody understands me when I bring this up, not even the person whom I have known to call as best friend.

This is fine for me, though. This being alone. I'm very much used to be alone with my own thoughts and sulk in one corner of the world, invisible to almost everyone. I come to and go from class alone. I often talk to no one except when it's about important things like having to listen to classmates who say "We should meet later for this project" or "I think Death in the Andes is very disturbing" or "When is the exam?" and react on what they say with "Okay" or "Wow... that's... interesting..." or "On Tuesday." If nobody's gonna talk to me then I'll shut up the whole time.

And it is just a little bit insulting when a classmate from creative writing class pointed out my being alone. Yes, I admit that I am alone most of the time but hey, I don't need another person to tell me that except for myself. That classmate has a hell lot of confidence and guts to tell people on their face that they're alone and that nobody would like to keep them company. I never forgot that remark. A slap on the face.

The rest of this shall stay in my own thoughts. Thank you for reading and for your sympathy, if ever there is. I know I only have one reader. That's you, and you know who you are, for sure.